Thursday, January 24

Three Cheers for Molly

We went to story hour today
at our quaint little library
on our tree-lined main street that I just adore.

Molly, as you may or may not know,
has been... apprehensive (to put it lightly)
of being anywhere but attached to my leg
while we are out.

Today, however,
about halfway into story hour,
Molly jumped up and ran to the center of the room where some other toddlers were.
She gave me a big smile
and I almost cried
because I was so proud of her
and also, (let's be real here),
a break from the hip attachment is nice.

Something I love about my Ava...
Ava acts as a little mommy to Molly and it's quite adorable.
The other day, during nap time,
I watched on the monitor while Molly was doing little bursts of screams.
(not crying screaming, just silly screaming).
Ava popped up too and right away held her finger up to her lips.
"Shh Mo-ee. Shh. No no no. Shh. Shh. No."
My heart.

Well today, Molly ran up to be closer to the action
and Ava watched her for a minute.
She then busted out of my arms and ran up too,
and started patting Molly really fast with her hands,
doing a happy dance with her feet,
and grinning from ear to ear.
She didn't care about the story or seem to notice anyone else,
and truly was just excited for Molly.
It seemed as if, in her own toddler-mommy way,
Ava was cheering Molly on.

In fact, I'd like to believe she was saying,
"Molly! Great job! Keep it up! You should try this in nursery on Sunday!"

And maybe she was saying that and maybe she wasn't ;),
but as you can see in this picture,
she certainly loves her sister
and I couldn't help but just feel warm all over
thinking that they will always have each other rooting for them.


Tuesday, January 22

A Strawberry Danish Broken in Two

it is one of those moments
as you are finishing a stroll through the mall.
it feels lonely, yet not quiet,
because the babies are crying
and judgmental eyes lay on you from every corner.
"you don't know my story"
you want to tell them.
"we just moved here and don't have our stuff.
the girls are getting over a cold
and daddy is 2,150 miles away on a business trip.
and beyond that, we are stir crazy wherever we are
because the apartment feels small
but the stroller isn't much better.

and the mommy you strive to be
is lost in emotions of overwhelmingness and sadness and stress.
you forget that bad days are allowed and just feel guilty
because God has blessed you with so much and how dare you feel sad.

and suddenly, you find yourself standing at the dead end of the mall
in a panera bread
blankly staring at the menu
while the girls cry to "eat" and "out" and "more".

and you love being a mom, their mom.
and normally, you would whip out your bag of mommy tricks
to help subdue those cries of "eat" and "out" and "more".
but today, the diaper bag seems to only be filled with snotty tissues and empty pouches
and you have nothing to help them.
quite frankly, you just want to cry alongside of them
because today is feeling like a really hard day.
you miss your life, your stuff, your friends.

and as you stand there in panera bread,
you start feeding yourself more mommy guilt
because how can you not keep it together at the mall
and why did you not bring better toys and more snacks
and how do you not know how to help your children stop crying?

and then suddenly, you snap out of the overwhelmed daze you find yourself in
as a sweet bakery worker comes up to your stroller with sympathetic eyes and says
"they can eat sweets?"
and you realize she had taken a strawberry danish from the bakery,
broken it in half, wrapped the two halves in paper,
and has knelt down by your stroller.

you humbly shake your head yes and feel the tears brimming
as the woman hands your crying toddlers a piece of bread to calm their tears.
it works and works also for your soul
as it allows you to take a breath and refocus.

and finally, you order a half grilled cheese/half tuna fish
and an iced tea.
and you only say thank you
but you say it in a way to mean
not just thank you for the sandwich
but for not judging and for sharing kindness and bread instead.

"I can remember those days" she says
and you know she means the hard ones
because she remembers those days came too
and while it was all good, it was also sometimes not.

and that's all she says.
she doesn't try to tell you to enjoy it while you can
because she knows you already know that.
she knows that right now all you really need is to not be judged,
but to be loved and extended grace instead.

and just like that, a strawberry danish and a kind stranger turns your whole day around
and you leave Panera Bread not only with a full belly,
but a full heart too.

Monday, January 21

Props to Apple Once Again!

were you thinking that I just stunk as a blogger again?
not so.
my beloved computer was hating on me big time
and made it impossible for me to get on here.

my computer has been broken for the past few months.
after twenty minutes or so, it would freeze. 
but I lived with it and just kept rebooting it. 

but since we came to Florida, 
my computer became brooooooken.
like, I couldn't use it for more than 2 minutes without it freezing. 
which isn't good for shopping or blogging or researching.

anyway, you may remember the post that I wrote many moons ago about Apple.
not the fruit. the computer.
though I actually like apples a lot now
thanks to my new found discovery of the goodness of all things "real food".
but that's for another post.

my beloved Apple people helped me again.
i truly will love them forever.
like take them on vacation and put their picture on the mantel love them forever.

Dan took my four year old MacBook Pro to the Apple store on Saturday
where they diagnosed it for free (bad hard drive).
my husband put in a new hard drive on Sunday.
but it still didn't work.
so we took it back to the Apple store today
where they diagnosed the new problem. for free. again. and fixed it there.
while comping the labor and only charging us for one $15 part.

grand total for the whole kit and caboodle: $90.
and we thought I was going to need a new computer.
relief beyond relief.

and as a bonus, this blog can get the show on the road (again).
because blogging on your phone stinks big time (for real).
and it just wasn't working as well (hence why no new posts).
but now my computer, and thus my blog, is back up and running.

now it's time for a snack.
which happens to be apples.
with cheese. and honey.
and it's awesome. and you should try it.
and next time you need a computer,
you should buy a Mac.

Thursday, January 10

We've Moved!

We have moved into our new temporary living place. Yay!
Let's just say that it's better in every way.
I could go on and on about how horrible it was,
but let's put the past in the past
and talk about

Wednesday, January 9

Hello!

This blog has taken a backseat for awhile.
We were busy with stuff like.... moving to Florida.
Just stuff like that.
No big deal.
(hahahahahahaha).
Have you ever flown on an airplane to Florida with toddlers before?
It's not something I'd suggest doing for fun.
But more on that later.

And here we are!
In Florida!

It hasn't sunk in yet.
Between the 82 degree weather
and trips to Disney,
this still feels like a vacation.
We feel very blessed to be here.
We miss our dear sweet family and friends already
so much.
so much.
so much.
But we are embracing this change
and trying to jump right into this adventure that God gave us.

I'm been thinking about this blog a lot lately.
I've been posting a ton on Facebook
but have decided to shift a lot of it to the blog
and post more here.
I feel like I'm facebook-newsfeed-overloading
and facebook is too tempting for me to go on and post all day.
Plus, I miss the journaling aspect of blogging.

So if you are here,
and want to read about our adventures big and small,
you can subscribe on the right
by clicking the blue "join this site" button
and then you can choose to be emailed when I post
or just put it on your google reader
or whatever you want to do.

We are in temporary living right now
and are moving to a different temporary living place tomorrow
because of, ahem, some dirt.
And by some I mean
"75 lysol wipes later and I gave up before the second bathroom and just shut the door" dirt.

But that's okay.
Dirt doesn't hurt- it just ruins the bottoms of your socks.
(my mantra while living here for a week- I know- it's catchy- soon every fortune cookie writer will want that one).

And the girls and I have taken full advantage of where we are
and went to Epcot today
where they even held hands for awhile
and took mommy on the Finding Nemo ride
that had a moving escalator type thing
which should have a sign on it that says "do not walk on this carrying twins".
Come on Disney-- get on that.
I'm sure it would be relevant to many.
I can't be the only mother who carried her twins on an omnimover
(the fancy name for the escalator-ish walkway)
to get on a ride she had never even been on before but decided to try it by herself with twins.
Right?

Well, either way, here are some pictures from our day.

Really Mom? You want to try and walk us in these single strollers, again?"


Holding hands. 


All wiped out from our fun morning (minnie too).